Everything and Nothing

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Sat, 11 Oct 2008 03:29:25 GMT

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
azerai goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a marionette.
abyschan gives you 19 green watermelon-flavoured wafers.
akutenshi_alwz gives you 15 light orange cola-flavoured pieces of taffy.
chibi_angie gives you 4 mottled green orange-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
firesprite19 gives you 12 orange grapefruit-flavoured gummy bats.
keppo gives you 18 dark green grapefruit-flavoured gummy worms.
ladyzayn gives you 13 red-orange apple-flavoured gummy bats.
llemaire gives you 19 purple vanilla-flavoured gummy worms.
rzeznikgirl35 tricks you! You lose 46 pieces of candy!
sayona_dragon gives you 9 light orange watermelon-flavoured wafers.
squireonfire gives you 9 white apple-flavoured gummy worms.
azerai ends up with 72 pieces of candy.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

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Guess what everyone?

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 19:26:58 GMT

I'm not dead. XD I'm just usually on Myspace these days, but I realize a lot of my favorite people aren't, so I'm going to try to divide my time between the two blogs better.

And I'm back up on Deviantart. Can I get a hell yea?

Wed, 30 May 2007 00:05:15 GMT

All right, so...I could use some advice at this point. I'm pretty much at the point where I feel like I have an obligation to a friend to at least try to help him somehow.

So here's the situation. There is a boy that I know fairly well, and in truth have been more or less infatuated with for quite some time. Ever since I first met him, actually, and I've never stopped having genuine love, adoration, respect, and appreciation for. Now we argue and have our spurts as anyone would, but usually one of us will cop up to what we did and apologize as is appropriate.

Now, this fellow who has basically been the first person I've ever trusted with certain parts of my heart is involved in a relationship with possibly one of the most foul and dispecable people I've ever had the displeasure of meeting. This girl is ungrateful, selfish, spoiled, snotty, stuck-up, completely fake and soulless, and in a word a brat. Now maybe I have some welled up jealousy issues causing me to hate her as much as I do. That's what I thought at first, but as I talk to more people I learn that it's not just me. Lots of people don't like her. And it's because she treats people with no respect or courteousy. She's a snobby little bitch to everyone, demanding that everyone work in ways to please her or do nothing at all. She completely expects this very special friend of mine to devote every waking minute of his life to her these days, and many of us who call him our friend do not get to see him that much anymore. It's really quite disgusting.

So, the one thing I do have to admit as I go on with this is that yes, I do love him. Very much. He's got a beautiful personality and an incredible brain full of stories and talents and ideas. I respect him very much, even though he does some things I don't always understand. If I could see through him, I wouldn't have any interest in him anyway. And whether or not he ever ended up in a relationship with me, as nice as I would find that to be, the most important thing at this rate is that he doesn't end up selling his soul to this bitch who will drain him of his potential and his great mind and essentially clip his wings to keep him caged.

According to outside but reliable information, I have since learned that he himself does not seem to be all that satisfied with his current relationship either. Now this just kills me watching him argue with this bitch constantly and watching her treat him like a tool. But she's his sugar momma, she's got a credit card and shit, and he's not the most financially capable person (child support's a bitch), so she uses that to her advantage and keeps him interested in her with money. And he stays more or less, I believe, because he feels that he owes her for something because she's always buying him shit.

I can't stand it. The sickest thing is, these two people are my room mates, and I see first hand the bullshit behind their relationship. It's making a very close friend of mine, my first for lack of a better term "true love" go absolutely nuts. I don't care if I never get to be the woman of his dreams, I just want him to be happy and be able to be himself again. I want this bitch out of his life. I know he's not happy. He's already admitted that to so many of us as it is. I want to help him. But at the same time I can't throw myself into the fray so far that I can't get myself out of it again if it seems that my efforts will be fruitless in the end. I won't help people who won't help themselves, but I won't leave him hanging onto this misery without at least giving him a line to grab onto. Whether or not he does, I cannot say.

I just...don't know what to do for him at this rate.

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 05:20:42 GMT

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahahhahhahahahaha!!!!!!!

I've been working on that evil laugh, what do you think? Does it sound forced? Too much, you think? Aw...I have to work on it.

Anyway...I love Fullmetal Alchemist, and I got some new icons for it. They made me happy. ^_^

I don't really have anything to talk about. I just wanted to post something for the fuck of it, which would enable me to use one of my new icons that I love.

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 00:02:18 GMT

Someone told me it's all happenning at the zoo...

I do believe it.

I also believe having two hours of work left for the day is an exciting feeling, as opposed to the eight hours I was looking at six hours ago. It's been such a beautiful day outside, it kinda sucks being stuck on the phones all day, but tomorrow is my day off and it's supposed to be even nicer than it has been lately. So I'll take a walk tomorrow and feel really good about it then.

Talked to my Dad the other night. He might be moving back to Oswego, NY, where I grew up at one point. I wouldn't really mind going back there sometimes, but I also think that having both of my parents as far away from me as possible will be better for me in the long run, learning how to live and get by without their support is a huge thing for me. And honestly it's been so long anyway that I've recieved any kind of "support" from them, monetarily or otherwise. I got some Christmas presents, but I haven't had to ask them for anything in so long, and I'm really proud of that.

Right now I'm working on getting a portfolio together with some artwork for some of the tattoo parlors around here to consider the purchase of. Some extra cash would be infinitely useful to me right now. I wish I could live with Amy sometimes, but I know I'm stuck where I am for a few more months yet. C'est la vie...I think I spelled that wrong. Alas.

I'm gonna go see if the campaigns are back online. Ciao!

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 22:10:34 GMT

Wow...

I just had a guy yack in my ear for about forty-five minutes, and while it was all really cool and interesting what he had to say, I feel kind of bad, like I just wasted almost an hour talking to one guy when I should be calling dozens of people every hour. Oh well, I've gotten nothing but answering machines ever since I got off the phone with him, and he was a really nice old man that knows a lot about organic foodstuffs and their producers around the US. I guess I feel like I made a friend. But what was I supposed to do? Hang up on the guy? And if he was gonna keep me on the phone, he coulda at least donated $5 to us...I mean, come on...

Oh well, I haven't any ill for him at all. Old people get so lonely or whatever, that or they really just love to talk, and what the hell? I spent 45 minutes talking about organic food production with an old guy when I would have been getting answering machines like everyone else sitting around me. I guess that makes it seem a little better.

I watched Ferngully last night. I love that movie. It was like video crack. Then I drew some pictures and went to bed. Aren't you all impressed with my exciting life these days? I know I am. :/

Gotta run. I want a cigarette...I wonder if anyone will trade me one for a quarter?

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 21:14:50 GMT

Yay, work.

Yesterday I spent the night at Amy's because she's been feeling pretty down. It's probably her period for the most part, but it doesn't help that a lot of her friends have been letting her down pretty hard lately. Andrea wants to move out in May after the lease is up, though she had said before she would stay and help Amy out. Well, I for one think it'll be better that Andrea moves out because I'm tired of watching her go bankrupt just because her room mate can't pay for anything. It's not fair. Amy wants to start saving money so bad but she can't because she has to pay so much extra money just to keep the utilities on and stay living in their apartment. And the worst part is, I need to save money just as much as she does so we can move out of this ill-gotten state, and I'm in a similar situation supporting Tom's pasty white ass, but at least I know that he'll soon be doing better than pretty much all of us once his insurance gig starts up. He's getting his study materials tomorrow, which is a relief to me because I was starting to think we'd never hear from those guys again after giving them $800+ just to get started in the company.

Anyway, I gotta run. Just had to bitch for a moment. Room mates suck so bad sometimes. I never should have stopped living with Amy.

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 21:35:51 GMT

It's Thanksgiving. I'm in my Dad's house on his computer. My Grandparents are outside in their mobile home, my brother is watching football, and my Dad is playing with cars...I haven't been here in years. I haven't spoken with these people in ages, and it seems none of us can sit and chat until the food is out it seems. That's just like my family, though. Everyone does their own thing, and calls it being together. I guess I can't say I mind it so much, I do like the peace and quiet that doesn't come with the apartment life back in Lincoln. Still, you'd think that with so many years and weird feelings and stories to tell, we'd all take the time to just sit down, together, and act like we used to.

I haven't the slightest as to what I'm feeling now about all of this. I just feel good about being here, though. I can't lie about that. Everything is moving so much slower around here, it seems. Everyone's on a good pace of thought and motion, and no one's in a rush to get anything done. (Not even dinner, it would seem.)

I do have a slight headache, though. It's probably from the insomnia I've been dealing with for the past week now. I did sleep okay last night, though still not for very long. I've been very tired, though. And I have been working late a lot on top of that. It hasn't been that good, really. And work itself is a whole other stress that I can't even deal with, so throwing lack of sleep on top of that has been destroying me. At least it's given me the lack of empathy I need to be a bitch to the people that I need be being a bitch to - particularily, the 43-year-old man that keeps insinuating I should have sex with him and tries to act like I'm his best friend and all he does is screw me up at work and not do as I tell him. Yes, I'm in a higher position than he is and I have the right, the duty, and position to give him instructions, even though he's been working in a restraunt since before I was born. And that's funny to me.

Food is almost up. I want a cigarette before that happens. Commence th' jigglin'!

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 02:44:28 GMT

I'm well enough, I think.

It's been a little hard these past few months. The last place I was living at got red tagged by the city and we all had to move, but it did give me the chance to move in with my friends like I'd been wanting to do for a long time now. The problem was that I came in just as everyone else seemed to have no other income except for one other room mate. So she and I have been paying everything pretty much, and this month we'll have to go half each on rent, which means I'm paying $275 as opposed to the $110 if all five of us had income. That's all on it's way to smoothing out now, though, so all I have to do is wait and be patient with my current situation. It wasn't easy at first, but I managed to catch myself and back away from turning into a complete hellbeast.

I got laid today, but the reason that was important was because it proved to me that things haven't changed as much as I thought they did, and everything really is okay.

No, though. I don't have a boyfriend. I kind of like it this way better, though.

It's a complicated picture to describe. We call it a marriage family, though at this point, no one is married.

It's still going through some revision, but at least it's in practise.

I know that for as much time has passed since I last made an entry, I really don't have a whole lot else to say. Yeah, things are pretty plain around here, but at the moment I like it that way. I'm having fun. I have my plans. And we're all moving along with them very well. I have great friends that do wonderful things for me. All is good.

I hope the same is true for everyone out there as well.

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 14:23:03 GMT

Wow...just...wow.

It doesn't happen often. It takes a lot for me to get to this point. But it happened. I can already feel my mental stability bleed out of ears.

My wrist is bruised from hitting the elevator walls.

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 19:37:31 GMT

*groan* Don't ever try to think your interests or opinions hold any meaning as opposed to the mighty wisdom and integrity of the great Chris, for he is truly the wisest of them all, and shall not be argued against by pions such as we.

What I'm saying is, I bought a new book of 14 sci fi/fantasy stories compiled by L. Ron Hubbard and other acclaimed authors in the genres. Chris takes one look at it and starts going off on this spiel about how stupid Hubbard is, blah blah blah...and I end up feeling, once again, like a guppy that's been stepped on by the bear that's looking for salmon in the river. It might not have been intentional, but goddamn, he doesn't leave caring much for it.

He's really starting to get on my nerves. It's not just that he's the biggest cigarette bum I've ever met, not even just the fact that two days ago he asked Seth if he could borrow $5 and that same night he was jumping up and down because he'd just bought an X-Box. It's all these things, plus the fact he keeps trying to suggest we should have sex and I REALLY don't have any aspirations to do such, plus he keeps trying to flatter his way into my drawers by complimenting me excessively, he bitches about everyone around him when he has no room to talk, and talks too much about sex and seems to make it a point to bring it up around me, probably hoping that I'll feel bad or even partly responsible that he's not getting any and just throw myself naked on top of him.

Rargh.

Sat, 13 Mar 2004 00:46:42 GMT

This is a great website.

FoundMagazine.com

Very intriguing stuff.

Starting off

Mon, 08 Dec 2003 22:37:11 GMT

This journal is friends only. So boo hoo to anyone who's not on my friend's list.